31 and counting

It was during the singlet hunting when I received the birthday invitation. Hmm... a very old friend whom I haven't seen in ages, I just remember it is about time for his birthday. I could sense B2 peeked behind my shoulder what am I typing on my phone, agreeing to the invitation. "So, is that booty call?", he asked. "Nah, it's an old friend's and he's having birthday, I should attend since I haven't seen him in ages", I replied, tho he doesn't seem buying my excuse. Despite that, I didn't even try further to explain as I don't think there is a necessity to do so.

I was a bit bitchy on the day as Seb insist of things that doesn't make sense to me by asking me to make a few trips so he can go to the party with me. B2 think this is the first time he saw my bitchy side and it was a surprising revelation for him. After work, I eventually got the perfect birthday present without even thinking so hard and drove us to the party straightaway.

At the party it was an interesting mix of people. And surprise surprise, a few guys I had slept with during my not-so-proud-days apparently come to the same party. And the birthday boy give me the curious look as how did these boys know me. I send him a wink as a clue just like two years ago when I ended up sitting on the same table with three other boys I had slept with. But this is not the highlight of my night. One of the guest was a 54 years old man. He's Singaporean Chinese, I was sitting on the corner of the dining table with him after dinner, listening to his wisdom. About his thirty one years relationship with an ozzie. "Whoa, that's a really long time...!!!", to my surprise. "Well, you were not born yet at that time probably", he said.

I kept listening to his stories together with one of the guest. "So do you have a boyfriend?", he asked curiously. "Nah", I replied shortly. "why not? you're still young, if you meet someone who is really nice and can take care of you and you like him too, don't let him go", he said and continuing his story again. That number, 31 years and still counting, I'm sure they have up and down in their relationship, but clearly they overcome with it. they started from LDR and now things working out just fine. Happily ever after 31 years and counting, maybe one day I will too. And I hope that's not a false hope for me.***

the last supper

I haven't heard anything from him that day. But I was busy at work anyway. I decided not to go to the gym. I went straight to bed after work that day with fever. The clock was ticking louder and louder in my ear I decided to get up and take a warm shower. I sat down infront of TV while staring at the phone. Still no news from him. Until he rang and explained what has been going on today. "Have you had dinner yet?", he asked. "No, I just woke up half an hour ago, I skip gym as I had fever after swimming last night", I replied. "But It's 9 pm already, let's have dinner with me, I'm afraid that I will never see you again", he said. For once he genuinely wants to see me for dinner. I guess whatever on the book says works on him. "Sure, it's late tho, we can only have dinner in the city, so I'll drive since you're on my way to city anyway", I replied.

I sat there on the dining table in silence. I let him pick what to order and let him order too. My silence was there because I shut myself to a point where I don't have anything to talk about. I managed to contain my feeling and have myself composed. But apparently not to him. My silence was so deafening. I smell fear instead of food. I said nothing at all then suddenly he poured everything to me, whilst I just responds with a couple of nods or occasional yes/no answer. I showed him no interest any more its because I don't have it any more, I killed it when he was being such an ass.

"What is that? booty call?", he asked. "Nah, just Facebook update, I thought i was an important message", I replied. It smells nice or so I thought. "So this will be our last dinner I suppose, since your mum is coming to help you to move then you will be up at the coast with everyone in the family before you leave to UK", I said. "Yup, I suppose it is, But I am coming back in January for two weeks tho, I will catch you by then", he paused "If you still wanna see me that is, who knows you met someone between now and then and you don't wanna see me anymore", he continued. "haha", I chuckled "Even you don't want me, who would want me, don't be absurd", I smells more fear in him, the fear of loosing. At least I know I am winning in this silence battle.

I kept eating quietly, this is the place I took him for his birthday dinner. He always likes this place and kept saying that he's the only Caucasian in this restaurant. As I drove home, "If you go to UK, do let me know, I'm sure I can work it out a place for you to sleep", he broke the silence. "Yeh, I might go in spring or summer, tho I can only email you since you get rid of me from your Facebook, unless you updated me with your number", I replied casually. He hugged me tightly this time, "This is goodbye B, stay out of trouble, we don't know if we will ever meet again after this", I pushed him away before he get out of my car. "Why is that?", he asked. "Well, I have been looking forward to my ticket to leave the current job, by saying that I don't mind even if I am located in Africa, and who knows if I can get that job I applied last night too".

B walked into my life after J dumped me, twelve months later he left. Men, they sometimes come for a season, but other times for a reason. I don't know which one is B. It has been three weeks since he left, but my feeling still there, it won't go away.***

euro babble pt. 8 [Prague - Budapest - Vienna]

Prague

Prague 1

Prague 2

Prague 3

Prague 4

Prague 5

Prague 6

Budapest

Budapest 1

Budapest 2

Budapest 3

Budapest 4

Budapest 5

Budapest 6

Budapest 7

Budapest 8

Budapest 9

Budapest 10

Vienna

Vienna 1

Vienna 2

Vienna 3

Vienna 4

Vienna 5

Vienna 6

euro bable pt.7 [prague]

I never thought I would have time to continue this post. After several dramatic events in the past month with B, B2, I try to stay away from my own blog as it wasn't really nice things when I started over 12 months ago on top of that I have audit coming my way. No offence, I'm kinda hating auditor now. They dream for me and I have to make the dream come true, which is the real job part. Anyhoo, I'll do two post in one go.

12th leg : Prague

Arrving on day one. It was freaking hot. Here I thought summer is back and I'm happy to see the clear big blue sky. Until the second day, it was pouring rain since I opened my eyes in the morning until we left the city late night.

Despite the weather condition, I actually had one of the best moment of this holiday. That is when there's this old lady next to our table having lunch with her husband nearly drop her plate until Y catch it. Then the four of us started making conversation. Roughly, I think they both are in their 60's. She was amazed as to how many language Y can speak and even more suprised with mine. But I think this couple is even more amazing than their skin deep look. They have been spending their past 21 days tandem cycling together around Czech republic. Effectively cycling for 10 days and covers over than 500 km just the two of them. That's hell lot of determination to do so. Their story really inspired me more to explore the world.

old town square, the very reason I wanna see Prague

and the orloji, since I saw the pic on J's computer, I really wanna see it myself

I wonder where is this padlock tradition begins, need to look up on wiki